Like An American
“A mirror doesn’t give you an identity, and social media is simply the most elaborate mirror ever conceived.”
Feel free to follow me on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. Either way, this is Tumblr. I try to provide some sort of separation between social media sites. I think it’s only fair to provide variety amongst sites, because it’s an incentive to want to log on and stay connected. Even though, each site chronicles the daily happenings of Cliff, I use each site for a different reason. Maybe that’s just me.
I’ve been using Tumblr more of as a journal or blog. Something similar to xanga. Shout out to my xanga users. I’m a little more personal on Tumblr because there’s room to do so. I’ve mentioned my love life, work shit, accomplishments, and disappointments. But I’m thinking of revamping the direction of my Tumblr to keep my mind creative. I’m still staying true to myself and what I know, but executing and articulating my ideas/thoughts in a creative direction.
Feel me? Shit’s finna change.
Life is difficult. It’s not so much the decisions we make that is so difficult. With decisions, there’s usually options to choose from. It’s either one or the other. It’s the outcome, the aftermath, and the consequences that are so difficult. I feel myself ranting, yet again.
Come February 3rd, 2013, my lease is up. I have no idea where I’m about to live. The stress is getting to me and making me a negative person. I financially cannot continue living the way that I have this past year. I still owe people money from my last move and I have yet to accumulate enough to repay them. That is the choice I made a year ago and I have chosen to still go on trips, vacations, and buy things. The outcome of this, is that now I do not have enough to pay the expenses it takes to move to another apartment. Something has got to change.
I’m thinking I need to downsize. I don’t know what that means, it could mean various things. I cannot live in the peninsula, maybe i’ll move to the east bay. I cannot live with a roommate, I need to take care of me before I live with or care for other people. I need to be realistic. I need to be responsible. I need to be sensible. At some points, I feel selfish. But this dialogue, is a conversation that I have with myself internally and it keeps me up at night. I want to make sense of it all, but looking at the entire picture gets me overwhelmed. Prioritizing my worries, is a day to day task.
At the end of the day, this is the path I chose. I created this. These are the cards that I’ve been dealt. I just have to make better decisions. I’ll need to save my money, maybe get a better job. Either way, i’m living each moment one day at a time. I still have the power to create something better for myself.
1.11.2013. HAPPY 24th to my SISTER! FOREVER 20whore!
Dedicated to my current infatuation: Gucci Gucci by Neon Hitch
Dedicated to my current infatuation: All the Boys by Keri Hilson
Dedicated to my current infatuation: Nobody’s Business by Rihanna
NEW YEARS DAY HIKING!
My baby, my favorite